I keep seeing this status setting on Facebook and around other places on the net and I am just saying right here and now officially that I DISAGREE with this statement in such a way that it makes me laugh and or roll my eyes in displeasure when I read it. When someone says something along the lines of "Never regret anything you've done, it's made you who you are today, or don't live life with regrets or any other random way of putting the exact same statement. No regrets? Seriously. How can you change or become who you are now without first regretting mistakes you have made? I have regrets. Do I live each day thinking Oh man I regret that. No I don't....but I have regrets. There are things I wish I had done differently. That is a regret and it is not a bad thing. I think being able to regret our poor decisions is a good thing. It shows we have a conscience. It shows that we are human and capable of change. If you never regretted anything imagine the horrible things you could do! No this statement to me is very naive. You can have regrets but you have to move on and grow and learn from it....but you still have regrets.



As for the daycare? Well I drove up yesterday and saw what you see in this picture. It looks so much worse in person. Someone says their brakes went out and they went up and over the curb and hit the building. It was luckily into an office and not a room for the kids. No one was hurt thank God. I can imagine it was quite an ordeal. I am terrified to think someone was flying through that parking lot so fast not being able to stop. There is no way they could have gotten parked in that direction to fly into the building like that in my opinion. There are cars all the way around without much room to turn......I don't get how the person did this but I am very relieved my Gabbi was NOT there when it happened! I took the pic from inside my van so you're seeing the dashboard then the wall of the daycare, just to clarify for you.

Last night I decided to get online and check the weather for today. I was hoping there would be no rain and luckily there was not. The point though is not the weather. Rather, as soon as I got to the local news website the front page was plastered with stories of a riot at MY college.

It claimed that a party at the on campus housing got out of hand. 200 people supposedly were involved in this riot where shots were fired and a student was hit by a car. There were injuries from the fight but no one was shot. I had to go there this morning. I have to say it was on my mind and I am wondering if they know who fired the shots? So someone has a gun ON campus? I am not sure what to think of it but I do think every time I go to school of all the crazy things that go on out there. It's scary for sure. This was a bit too close to home. I was thinking of it on my way to school and again it talked about it on the radio. It's hard enough to feel safe out there these days. The last thing I need to worry about on top of my studies is whether someone is mad enough to get out a gun.

No, the cartoon really has nothing to do with my post. I just liked it. haha

Read the following article to know what I mean: http://www.digitaljournal.com/article/279005.

Now if you have read the article some men are probably grinning from ear to ear. Most women are wondering how accurate a study like this could possibly be and thinking that they should either hide the article from their spouse or just be ready to slap him if he acts on it. haha Now as for me I would probably be just as likely as my husband to notice a well endowed chest if it's just OUT there. I mean it's hard not to right? I will be honest though, if I wear a shirt showing a decent amount of cleavage I get lots of stares. I wouldn't say I am well endowed but I'm not small either. I hope that I can give as much of a health benefit as the lucky large chested ladies. haha

Not too long ago I received a Chocolate Sweet Spot Kit from Eden Fantasys. I have always approved of using a little extra in the bedroom with the partner or alone, whichever you're in the mood for. I found this website awesome for pretty much every toy you could imagine. I looked through all their products and being a chocolate lover came upon this: Chocolate Sweet Spot Kit. I had to have it and the hubby promised to help me try it out.

My fave is the pocket rocket when I'm alone. It does exactly what you want it to do! When I'm with the hubby ironically I like the vibrator. It makes it that much more exciting. Does anyone out there like to add a little something extra to the bedroom? I think that some find it so surprising to talk about but we are all adults here and there is so nothing wrong with wanting to have a little spice added to the bedroom. Or chocolate! It comes with a chocolate flavored motion lotion. It's nice to get that added lubrication but fun too because it tastes like chocolate. Sex and chocolate....seriously what complaints could I possibly have? I didn't get as much use yet from the bullet vibrator. I am not a fan of cords because I find it just makes things more complicated. In a pinch I'll grab something easy, not something I have to mess with. Still the set is nice and totally worth checking out!


Check out the wide range of products they have. :)

Eden Fantasys

I mentioned on my other blog seeing a guy in skinny jeans today. SOME guys can get it away with it and still look manly but I must stress that I believe very few do. I can see a guy and think he looks good but mostly if a guy can even wear skinny jeans I feel his body is too feminine. This is a personal opinion!

I like boot cut or slightly loose jeans on a guy. I am not all into that super tight, gotta stuff a sock in my pants look. This will fade out fast and the guys who are wearing them will be as embarrassed as all us women who are hiding pictures of 10 foot tall bangs from the 1980's. I just don't think skinny jeans on a guy is a good thing because from behind I am not sure if you are a guy or a girl. Today I walked behind someone with a long blond ponytail and skinny jeans. He turned around to reveal his full beard. Definitely a guy and not a super young one at that. I just do not get it. They pants only make him look more goofy and girl like.


What is your take on this fashion? Unless you are the lead singer of Green Day with your black hair swept over your eyes and black polish on your nails I say stay away from it. I prefer a MAN. haha

Oh and I added Bloglovin to my blog. Go sign up and add me. I'll follow you back!

Explore Modeling - Face of e.l.f. Casting: Sandra

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I still need a whole lot of votes. I appreciate everyone's voting for me! You can vote once a day. I think I could do this with a lot of work. haha

Well I was nervous only about one test...my Philosophy test. No it wasn't that hard. I had missed a day of class which is equal to one full day of notes. I thought I'd be ok studying the book. I got a B. You have no idea how much it upsets me that I didn't get an A but there were a few questions that literally did not ring a bell at all. I can't miss any more Philosophy classes! I'll strive for a high A on the next test. My Statistics test turned out to be an A which was a relief. It's not easy and there are tons of things to remember on the graphing calculator. I got an A on my Criminology test too. Now I can rest easy for a little tiny while. I have so much to do it's insane.

I had a decent anniversary yesterday. It wasn't perfect. Why? Well not by any fault of my hubby's. I had math class last night. I had to go to class on my anniversary and I found out my babysitter won't be available this weekend. I did however get a Wii for my anniversary which rocks! My hubby got me the Wii. Honestly I hope I play it enough to make it worth it for him. I got the Wii fit so all you bloggers out there with blogs related to that I might be joining you sometime! Now I just have to figure out how to hook it up.

Look for a review tomorrow. I got a little something something from Eden Fantasys and I have been asked to do a review. It should be interesting.

Literally I never used to do anything new color wise to my hair. The blond works for me. I liked to be safe. The past year has changed me. I have gotten a little braver and I am trying new things. I went even a little crazier this time than last! Now I inevitably always go back to blond but I did get compliments today from random people. I think the people in my Philosophy classes wondered who I was until they saw my face. haha Anyway here it is.....the new do.

I put up the link for the face of e.l.f modeling contest. It worked for a short while then I clicked a link and messed the whole thing up. You may have noticed you could no longer find my pic there. I still do not know for sure WHY that happened. Anyway I decided to just delete the old account and start from scratch so please go there and vote for me! If you already voted please do it again as this is a new account. I could win a vacation. I think it would just be fun to see how many votes I can get too! I'll post updates here regularly to see how many votes I have earned. Posted here is the main pic I am using there. There are a few more on that site so go vote!!! Share the link and most of all thank you thank you thank you!!! You vote once every day!!!


http://www.exploremodeling.com/Contest/Faceof_ELF_2010/11053/Sandra_Bender.aspx

Vote for me. I could win a vacation. It will be fun to see how many votes I could get.

OK If you the link does NOT take you to the right place or you can't see where to vote please bear with me. I clicked a link to have my last name removed from my public profile and my page disappeared!!! It says I am registered but it takes me back out to the main page when I click it. :( I contacted them to hopefully get it fixed.


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I am sorry but this is the third time I have heard of his ridiculous antics. I will be the first to say right up front I have enjoyed much of his music so I am NOT biased. I have been particularly fond of some of his newer stuff.

OK. Back to the point. What gives him the right in his egotistical brain to say WHO deserves an award and who does not? What gives him the right to take a time period designated for one thing and turn it into a whirlwind of his opinions and thoughts? I can say for sure his point is lost in his attitude. He is a jerk. I for one could care less about his fame, his money, or any other crap. He is just a man who is a big bully. All of us don't agree with things sometimes Kanye but it doesn't give us the right to act like an ass.

<a href="http://www.mtv.com/ontv/vma/2009/" target="_blank"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Kanye</span> West Storms The <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">VMA</span> Stage</a>

Kanye West Storms The VMA Stage

I'm editing to add that Beyonce was so amazingly classy for what she did! You need to check out mtv.com as I do not want to post all the videos here. She gave Taylor her moment and I am impressed. Janet's tribute to Michael put tears in my eyes. Awesome. Michael had class that Kanye will never have. I was shocked by Lady Gaga's performance. It was pretty bloody and supposedly about Princess Diana. I am not sure about it yet. I get what she was doing and I guess as far as artistic goes it's up there but it's pretty creepy too. The song is a tad slow but it might grow on me. What are your thoughts on the VMA's if any? I didn't watch it when it aired by the way. I am strictly watching the videos on MTV.com. I didn't even know it aired. Shows how cool I am.

OK not really but seriously the last two posts are complete opposites of each other. First I am all excited, shopping and happy and then I am reminiscing about less than pleasant aspects of my childhood. I have accepted my childhood. I love my parents and cherish my family. I am in some ways glad for all the trials. It's the trials that make you thankful for the good times. Otherwise I might be some egotistical brat. I think sometimes these things keep us grounded you know?

I think next weekend I'm gonna need a margarita. It's my relaxation drink of choice. I have a Philosophy exam in the morning. I am not really sure what to expect on this test so I am majorly cramming everything into my brain. Not sure how the test will be worded. Tuesday I have a Criminology exam and Wednesday night is a Math test. UGH. Wish me luck.

Yes. I admit it. I'm a shopaholic wannabe. I shop whenever I can. I am in love with it. It makes me happy. Yes this is kind of typical of women but you know there is so much joy in it. It was a nice stress reliever after yesterday. Gabbi is better by the way. I am relieved.

So what did I do today? Well I bought jeans....a few shirts. I got a delicious White Chocolate Mocha. Mmmmmmm. It was the perfect day. I think the guys on the upper level were checking out my cleavage though. Yes boys....I notice you looking. I just make sure they are adjusted right and move on. haha

Anyway I snapped a picture of myself in the dressing room. I am odd like that I guess but it's fun. I sent a special (but not TOO special pic to the hubby.) He liked that at work. haha I am worn out though now. Philosophy is fairly boring at 9 a.m. folks. I could hardly keep my eyes open for class and I am sure the professor noticed it. I did fight it though.

On a side note....I had to buy a size 0 today. No that isn't a typo. I normally wear a 1. I have to say I do not think I am too thin or that I look too thin. I have had a few kids though. Post baby body is way different than pre baby body. I'd love my old body back. My basic reason for such small jeans is my lack of a butt. I could really use one.

Have you ever had one of those weeks? It seemed like each time you turn around that something else is going wrong? Let's not even get into how my hair appliances tried to kill me last week! Yesterday I was sick. I believe I ate something that did not sit well. I missed two classes including my stat class that included a review for our upcoming test. That sucks enough. Today? I picked up my baby girl from daycare and within a half hour she was vomiting hard. She has a milk allergy and so she gets really sick from ANY milk. I can pretty much instantly tell now the difference between a simple stomach bug and the allergy. It drains her.

I filled out forms at the daycare telling them she had the allergy. I stressed it in a separate letter because I felt like they were not taking me seriously. Yes it is milk and surprise it's a common allergy! Anyway I called the daycare and first they flat out lied. I was told she had NO milk and no access to anything with milk...they did not even have anything with milk in it today. Ok.....but I still wasn't sure. Something was not right with how this came on. Then they called me back. A lady in the daycare admitted Gabbi stole another kid's Cheese It's. I have no idea how many she ate. I cried on the phone and told them how sick she was. I told them I was rushing home while she puked all over herself in the backseat. Her face beet red....her body looking pale and weak. I am mad thinking of this!!! I got another call back from the director who informed me the lady who was responsible in both situations has been fired. I agree with it. I think she did not and does not take food allergies seriously enough. A child's life could be on the line.

It was assured to me she'd be put in a high chair and kept away from all foods other than what I specifically send for her.....but it hasn't happened that way. She hasn't even been going a month. It happened once before, which I suppose is important to mention. She got a hold of another kid's cookie and got bad diarrhea for about 12 hours. This time she had more milk because she got VERY sick. She seems happier at the moment.

What would you do? I am a very very over protective mom as it is. Sending her to daycare was very hard on me and took TONS of trust. I am so saddened. It is a reputable place in a well to do neighborhood. Wish me luck tonight. Usually the bowels are affected after the vomiting and it gets bad. I don't need this. I cannot miss school again tomorrow.

Yesterday I felt really really sick. I had went to bed with a bit of a sour stomach. It never went away. It was awful. I knew I had to get up early. I have fought insomnia since 2004 and having an upset stomach on top of it wasn't a great encouragement. I took an Ambien but guess what? It didn't work. Long story short I felt terrible yesterday morning. I missed my classes. I didn't want to but getting sick in Philosophy class is just not an option for me!

I feel better today but my stomach still has this small knot in it. I am going to Criminology today. I actually really enjoy this class. I don't feel like I learn a whole lot in Philosophy. I learn how to argue about anything and everything and not believe anything I am told. I guess that is something!

My teachers really fit their classes too. The Criminology teacher is bald, 40-ish, kind of buff like something straight from CSI. My Philosophy teacher has a long loose, low, ponytail, little wire frame glasses and usually a suit jacket and kakis. Seriously they couldn't have cast better in a movie.

By the way, if you 'd like to have your link included on my blogroll leave it in this post. I will add you. I only ask that you add mine to your blog too.

Now off to get ready for school!

I blog here for fun. I have some regulars and I love it. I have noticed though in the past couple of months on this blog my Alexa rating plummeted hardcore. I went from having a 3 pagerank with Google to NA. I don't understand it. I haven't been dropping as many Entrecards lately because of school but I still feel like I get plenty of visitors each day and commenters. Any tips out there on how to increase Alexa rating? Should I just not care? I read something about an Alexa Toolbar. Not so sure about that though since I really hate toolbars.

I'm going to have to put a stripper pole on my blog and dance just to get some visitors.








KIDDING!

Tune in if you'd like to hear me being interviewed. The interview is for my other blog and my experience being pregnant with cancer. I don't talk about that much here. I have to have a place where that is just not the sole topic of conversation. I am proud of all that I have come through though and being a survivor is a big part of who I am. Tune in here:

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/the9monthclub/2009/09/08/Pregnant-With-Cancer--One-Womans-Courageous-Journey


3:30 Eastern time. (I am editing this because I realize the show comes from the UK....so I think 8:30 was THEIR time. I believe after it airs it will be up on their site so you can listen whenever you want but don't quote me on this. I will post a link to it if it is.) I am Central Standard time so for those of us you'll be tuning in at 2:30. Forward, tweet, and blog it! I hope I can do this without sounding like a total dork. :)

I love being vague like in my last post so it leaves everyone wondering what in the world I mean by all that. How did it happen and why? Well, I'll let you keep wondering. I went out with some friends and that's how my night went. Funny how these things happen to me though. :) I had a really good time. I had wanted to go see my sister's hubby's band but I didn't want to go too far from home due to a teething toddler who hasn't been really happy lately. I figured the babysitter would get frustrated. But she ended up being fine anyway and I ended up going out and hitting a few bars and another place that I had never been to before. That last place was where the excitement was.

Anyway I am thinking we might have people over tonight. I was searching for karaoke last night actually and couldn't find it for anything in the world. Oh well! I'll leave you with me singing karaoke at my own house. Yeah it's my basement in this video. We pretty much have an awesome set up for DJ'ing and singing or if you prefer drums, guitar or keyboard. :) Have a good Sunday!

I ended up lying a on a stage with a scantily clad female upside down in my lap. How was your Saturday night? Hmmm....

I have been responsible for it in the past. Just ask my cousin Bob whose finger I actually broke, or my sister Cindi whose hand I smashed in a car door when we were teens. Ahhh the memories. Well this morning I got up and walked rubbing the sleep out of my eyes toward my bedroom door. It's about 5:30 a.m. and I am dead tired. I open the door, wanting to close the door quietly pulled the door to a slow close. Unfortunately it closed faster than I expected and crunched my finger. That was a fast wake up let me tell ya. Coffee doesn't even work quite as well as that did. Anyway ouch. At least no hair appliances attacked me today.....yet.

I have to get another TB shot today. I had one a few weeks ago. I was supposed to go back in and get it checked on a certain day. I forgot. So they had to redo it. I went back in so they could check it, it was fine. Unfortunately for me for some odd reason I have to have two of them to go to nursing school. I'll be leaving shortly. I think they may be jabbing me with more needles too because I have no shot records at all. My childhood doctor packed up and disappeared and my home burnt down as a kid so no records of any shots exist as far as I know. I need several shots or proof of immunity. I will need blood drawn to prove immunity. I am no stranger to blood draws so bring it on. I am not afraid of needles and actually am looking forward to giving shots one day. I guess I am sick like that. Ha!

Hope everyone has an excellent weekend. Oh and get out there and have a good Labor Day too.

Life has been keeping me busy no doubt about it. Monday through Friday I have class. I have to make the trip twice on Wednesday for a night class. That one is my Statistics class and by the time I get there I am already dead tired. So how does one stay awake for it? Well I do because if I do not? I will never understand any of it. It's insane. I forget how to do what I learned in class by the time I get to my 4 hours of homework! My teacher literally puts on the syllabus that he figures we'll spend about 4 hours per week on homework. Good god. 4 kids....a hubby and 5 classes. Oye.

Anyway yesterday I decided to run by the store and pick up a few items after class. I saw a older man walking there who had very large swollen legs. The legs were wrapped up and even his shoes were very big. I have heard of this medical condition. I believe it has something to do with circulation but cannot be positive. Anyway I just thought to myself that it would be horrible if he fell or something. I am sure it is painful for him to walk not to mention if it is his circulation a heart attack or stroke could probably occur. I did my shopping and left. I was driving away in my van when I saw him....lying on the road in the front of the parking lot. He was surrounded by people and some store personnel. He was not moving at all. I thought maybe he fell because his legs gave out and maybe he was in pain. I left and saw nothing more. I wonder what happened. The ambulance had not even arrived when I came upon this scene. I knew I could do nothing to help so I drove away but I do hope the man is alright.

Now this morning was sort of Final Destination-ish for me. I was getting ready and while curling my hair all the sudden my blow dryer kind of blew up. Yeah you heard me right. It made a loud pop and then I saw electricity and smoke. I freaked and pulled the plug on it. It will never see an outlet again. Garbage! Whew. I made it out alive. Then I grabbed my curling iron and proceeded to use it when ZAP! My hand felt like it got shocked. I thought WTF? I looked at the cord and I saw exposed wires. The cord had cracked open and my hand touched the wires. Now you tell me.....what would you do after a morning of your hair appliances trying to kill you? I decided my hair was done.

I decided to take my scratch tickets back to the store to collect my big winnings of $3.00. I figured I may as well get three new ones. I know. It's a vicious cycle. Anyway I bought a ticket I had not seen before. It caught my eye because of all the orange cones on it. Yes it was road construction. The ticket was called Detour Doubler. I have seriously been through more road construction in the past month than I have in my lifetime! OK. Maybe not but it sure seems that way!

Anyway I scratched off the other two and won nothing. On the road construction ticket? I won $25.00! I'll use it for gas money. You gotta love winning...no matter how big or small!