Just One of Those Weekends

I try to keep this blog about just me. I try not to gab on and on about married life and kids. I am proud of the fact that I am a mom and I am proud that I have been married for 13 years. I am proud of being a cancer survivor. I am proud of all that I have gone through and everything that has made me who I am. But this blog is to be separate from all of that. I want to just be ME. Sometimes you need a place to just be you and not all the things that you are labeled as. I am not just a mom. I am not just a wife. I am not labeled by the cancer I had. It has changed me. I have grown and learned a lot by the things that have happened in my life. Good or bad, it has all affected who I have become.

Still I need a place where I am nothing more and nothing less than Sandi. Yes, that is right. I just referred to myself in the third person. haha This weekend though it was all about being a mom. Easter started off good. I cooked and baked. I had everything tip top. Then my 9 year old went into her room and puked all over the floor. *sigh* So I got out the rug cleaner and cleaned. I scrubbed. I washed up. I cooked more. Then the baby REFUSED loudly to take a nap. Screaming, crying, fussing, yelling. So I just decided no big deal. I won't make her nap. Big mistake because she decided sleeping at night was also a bad thing and chose to cry and fuss until I allowed her to lie in my bed for awhile at about 2:00 a.m. She loved that and smiled and giggled immediately. She dried her eyes because her tantrum got her what she wanted. I spoil her. I know it. I have spoiled her I should say. She is 17 months and a miracle baby. Read my other blog if you want to know why! (Pregnant With Cancer) Anyway she has figured me out. So this afternoon she doesn't want to nap either. I put her down and have spent the afternoon shushing the older kids who are on vacation for one more day. YEAH for school tomorrow! I want the baby to sleep and the other kids make it hard because they fight, yell, giggle etc...while I am trying to put the baby down for a nap. I shush them. I beg. I freak out. Still my shushing inevitably wakes up the baby. So there is NO getting away from it today. No. Right now I am all mom.

p.s. Where is the Calgon when you need it?