I have a seriously awesome giveaway going on folks. We need some entries here. I am pretty sure I linked it at the top of this page. Look for it. Got it? Ok. Remember that and go enter when you are done reading this post.

I have been of course busy as usual with classes and all that jazz. I have a lot of work to do and things are in full swing right now. I just started my English Composition class on top of all the other ones I was already doing. However yesterday I was feeling pretty good. I decided to swing through McDonalds on my way and grab a "hot, nonfat, mocha". Yes I love those things. As long as they are made right. I must stress more than once I have ran through and drank bitter crap. I am never happy when that happens. Anyway they actually made me pull forward to wait for my medium mocha. Seriously.

However it took only about 4 minutes tops and the guy comes out looking sort of down and goes to hand me my drink, he looks up, looks noticeably surprised, stumbles over some words then tells me I'm really beautiful. Ha! I blushed, said thank you and enjoyed the rest of my day. :)

It's kind of a lazy day too. I did some homework and read a little but I am not into it at all. I need to focus.

My daughter Gabbi is really talking a lot these days. I have taught her to hold up two fingers and say two. I love it when asked how old they are little kids do that. So I thought better teach her now before she is 2. She absorbs everything like a sponge. I taught her in a few seconds. She says 2 and holds up two fingers on each hand. So I went a step further and taught her it was also 1+1. So now if you ask Gabbi what is 1+1 she holds up two fingers and yells "TWO!"

What a genius baby.

Also please vote for me. This is totally based off popular vote so it's completely possible. The problem is the chick in the first place slot has like over 3000 votes. I have about 249. I have a ways to go. Still, that is a lot of votes and I have you all to thank. Thank you so much!!!

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Be sure to read my update on my dad below. Things have been so somber on my blog lately that I thought it was time to do a giveaway. I don't make mine hard. You don't have to fill out twenty forms, write 30 posts, link this and that and perhaps MAYBE get an entry. No I just want some comments. You leave me a comment, you get an entry. If you want extra entries go ahead and tweet this, then link me to your tweet. Add me to your blog roll for another entry. Or if you want, grab my ad here and link it to my blog.


Take your pick. Do one, do all. Just tell me which you did in a comment and show me where I can find them because you know, I can't give credit it if you're not telling me the truth! haha

Now let's get to the point. What am I giving away? It's a digital photo album. These things are awesome. I have one at home and the hubby has one on his desk at work. These things make great gifts too. Let me just list what it says on the box.

EnVue Burnes Digital Photo Album
*Photo Manager for rotating, cropping and managing your photos
*SD/MMC card compatibility
*Rechargeable battery with up to 6-hour life
*AC adapter and USB cable included
*Removable tabletop easel included
*Compatible with Windows 2000/XP/Vista
*3.5" digital LCD screen
*Resolution: 320x240
*Brightness: 180cd/m2 Full White Pattern
*Contrast ratio: 220:1
*Internal memory holds up to 60 photos


It comes with a designer case as well. I have a couple of pics with it. If you have questions feel free to ask. Winner will be notified at the end of this contest which will be whenever I feel I have enough entries. Most likely 2 weeks. Good luck!

Honestly things are at a standstill. The surgery went well. The medicines seem to be doing the job. He has some relief and is breathing better. He has a tube draining fluid out of his liver. I wish I could actually speak to his doctor to know the details. I get this information from my mom who honestly doesn't understand anything medical at all. I have not been able to go see my dad in about a week because we have all been so sick in this house. I will not risk my dad catching something, nor anyone else in the hospital as I am sure you can all appreciate. I miss my dad and just wish he could be his old self again but I don't see that happening any time soon.

He is back on a feeding tube. He is just not eating right on his own. His mouth gets so dry and they just swab it with those wet sponges. I feel for him. He talks very short of breath so I don't even like to call him because I worry it is too much. At the same I remember when people did that to me when I was sick. Even though I knew I couldn't talk long I still liked talking to people. I needed to feel cared about. I felt abandoned in many ways.

This is the most I have right now. We are so thankful the surgery went well. The screen was put in to prevent any further clots from going up into his lungs. Hopefully all these things work the way they should. I would like to get in to see my dad but until the illness totally clears out I am not risking my dads life. I am going to call though. Right now actually. I'll post new updates as soon as possible.

No I don't have the swine flu. I heard my uncle does though. I guess there are tons of kids out of school right now. I myself am sick but I think it's some painful stomach bug. I am not feeling at all well. I have stomach pains, nausea, weakness and lethargy. I flat out feel like crap. My daughter Angelina was sick last night too but felt better today. I missed classes though I really didn't want too. I still don't feel good but I think I may have to attempt class tomorrow anyway.

Anyway I realized recently something that seriously annoys me. I went to McDonalds for a Mocha after class. I tend to do that often. Lately they have this automated voice that asks if you want to try something. It sounds like a real voice happily asking you to try their new combo or whatever but when you say no and start telling your order there is a new voice. The actual cashier. So I go now, knowing this is an automated voice and don't know whether to say no thanks. I don't want the new combo. I sometimes just say "I would just like..." but I can't seem to bring myself to just completely not acknowledge it. Anyway, that's my latest pet peeve.

He began having breathing troubles. They knew he had the potential to develop a blood clot after all he went through and since he can't get up or move or anything they were watching for it. They found the clot in his leg yesterday. He is on oxygen right now and having pain and trouble breathing. Well they started him on some meds to break up that clot and thin out the blood but it managed to move to his lung anyway.

Right now my dad is being wheeled away for surgery. He has fluid in his lungs and that clot. It will be a 1 1/2 hours surgery. Gabbi is sick and I woke up not feeling great. I could use some good vibes folks. I want my dad to see me become a nurse someday. I get so worried that it might not happen.

Maybe I need a new sound card but the recording seems choppy to me. Regardless, this is me....singing this song that I kinda like. haha Paparrazi by Lady Gaga. Just having fun! :)

Come on. I have to do it! We had big Halloween party last year, so we are doing it again this year. I got my costume tonight and snapped a few pics. Excuse my messy hair! haha I bought it and then cleaned the house, then tried this on. I'll have my hair and makeup all done on Halloween. Anyone doing anything for Halloween? Do you have some crazy costume ideas? My hubby doesn't know what he wants to go as yet.

When I arrived at the Halloween store tonight there was a car blaring music outside with speakers on the roof of it. It was the radio station and they were inside doing the show. I went in and talked to them. I do not "think" I was on the radio but um....I don't know. He just said hi and started telling me to enter to win Jay-Z tickets so I did.

So what do you think of the costume?

We did have a good time. During a few jokes I thought of how dad would enjoy them and it made me sad. Dad is improving. It's truly a miracle. We aren't out of the woods but the breathing tube has come out and he has managed a few raspy words here and there. He has been waking up. The docs had him for dead a few days ago and though I am not letting go of my fears just yet I am strongly hoping that he'll come out of this. He is still in ICU right now but responding to commands and breathing on his own. Thanks so much for all your prayers. We still aren't sure about brain damage. I am told what speech he has managed is garbled. I am home with my kids who are not allowed in ICU so I can't get up there right now. It kills me! Regardless that is the update which I find to be my best EVER.

As for Jeff Dunham it was fun. Guitar Guy came out first and did a little bit. He was hilarious. The show started at 8 but Jeff did not arrive on stage until 9:00. You all who read my blog KNOW how much I love Jeff Dunham. I post his videos all the time. I love his act and find him hilarious so you'll know when I say this that I am saying the total truth. He sounded drunk. PLOWED. Wasted. When he came out initially before he started using the dummies he totally sounded annihilated. He had been backstage slamming a few back I think. He was talking so fast and very slurred but you know he came out of it quick. I am NOT saying anything against him. I have been there a few times myself though not onstage in an arena with thousands of people watching me. haha I was just a bit surprised. He got into the flow of his act and soon things were going good. He was as funny as usual and I had a really good time.

Before the show we went out to dinner at a Japanese Steakhouse where they cook up the food right there where you sit. I had a delicious Plum Wine. My dinner was Steak and Salmon. I had fried rice, vegetables and some mushroom broth type of soup. I liked it all. Enjoy the pics of my night and I'll link to some videos!

First the update on my dad. They got the very final results of the Lumbar and guess what? Now they are saying it's not meningitis even though they were so positive it was. They even treated all of us who had contact with him with an antibiotic. Now we have NO idea what's wrong with my dad other than he is intubated now, unconscious all of the time and not responsive for the most part. He opened his eyes for a couple of seconds yesterday when the nurse moved him. He looked at her....then went back out. I am holding on to any morsel of hope I can find. I hope he pulls out of this. We don't know what has gotten him so sick!

He started with stomach cramps months ago....had gallbladder surgery, stent surgery after he turned yellow with jaundice. More stomach aches, no real answers. His blood sugar went up. He had TONS of tests that did not reveal any cancer. Doc thought it was pancreatic but nothing has been able to show it. So what is this? Why is my dad in a hospital bed unconscious? This is frustrating because we do not know what's wrong. He just got sick. Docs couldn't make him better. The next thing we know he is practically (though not literally) in a coma.

I want my dad to get better so bad. I cry all the time. I try not to when I see him. The first times I couldn't help it. I'll be seeing him tonight for a while before the hubby and I make our trip to see Jeff Dunham. I had been so excited about that. I bought tickets for our anniversary. We bought them awhile ago....and I decided we should still go. Perhaps it can cheer me up a bit.

Thanks to all who have come over to my blog and shown some love. I appreciate it. It's warmed my heart to know others care seriously. This has been a sucky, shitty piece of crap year and though I know some would say don't feel that way I can honestly say if I sat you down and told you all the shit that has occurred in my life you'd whole heartily agree.

Last night the docs did a lumbar puncture thinking the infection had either gone to dad's brain or that he had meningitis. We are waiting on the results still. I got there today and he seemed less responsive to me. They were preparing to do an EEG. I had to leave to get Gabbi from Daycare. I have been home about an hour and got a call. The doctor believes my dad has brain damage, and doesn't think he'll make it. It's miracle time folks. We need one. Now.

He looks like he is dying. This is to put it bluntly. We know he has the blood infection and it moved into the heart. They are treating it but he cannot talk, and he is unresponsive. He groans and leans toward me but can't open his eyes all the way anymore. He squeezed my hand though. I know he knew I was there. What is wrong?? This happened from gallbladder surgery to this! I am so upset. I want my dad to get well but he keeps getting worse. We have insisted on a second opinion and said we want him sent to Mayo. They agreed. They are making the transportation arrangements now. Please....if you pray....pray for my dad today.

Yes I have for the past month and a half been reading the wrong Psychology book. You see when school started I went to the very busy bookstore, not knowing what I needed. There are many workers who will come to you and offer assistance. When they saw my list they helped me pick out the required text books. I never thought once to question it! It is a Psychology book on the right subject, just not the right text.

Well my Psychology class is a Telecourse. I pretty much do the whole thing on my own and watch DVD's I check out from the school library. Then after about 4 to 5 chapters I go into the college and take a test. This is NOT easier because you have to have discipline and dedication to do the required homework assignments and tests all on your very own. I spent the entire day studying and making up note cards. I realized the keywords on my study guide were just NOT in the book. Only about a 1/10th of them were. I did not understand this but figured the teacher was just being tricky. She didn't want it to be too easy you know? Well about the time I decided to work on my essay that involved answering specific questions from the chapters the teacher listed I realized the title of the chapters did not match up. I thought NO way could this possibly be the wrong book. Well I slowly turned to the page on my class information to see the name and edition of the book for the first time. Yes I have looked many times at MY book just not at the words on the syllabus that says the name of a book I do NOT have.

I should have payed attention to it. I know. I didn't. I took it for granted and now I am out hours and hours of my life. I wrote about 50 note cards. I read 4 chapters. I am devastated but luckily have a nice teacher whom I contacted with my dilemma. The test was today! I have been studying the WRONG book! So she was very kind and said the bookstore has done this before. She wasn't upset with me and offered me an extra week! This means I have to go into the bookstore tomorrow, explain the situation, hope they'll take that book back and I can buy the new book, begin studying four chapters from scratch and get my assignment done all by next Tuesday. This is all on top of all my other classes of course.

*sigh*

I had class today which ended up being interesting due to being locked out. For details on that go to my other blog here Pregnant With Cancer. I just hate writing the same story twice. haha You'll rarely get the same stuff on both of my blogs. However the situation does contribute to how my day has been going. I got into that class late due to no fault of my own. We got a late start period. After that class I had an eye doctor's appointment.

I had my checkup, got my new contacts and love them. They are so far not showing to dry my eyes out so much. Regardless while in the waiting room there was a little old lady who kept oohing and ahhing at Gabbi. She was quite old I could tell and she walked with a cane.

I finished up my appointment and as I was paying the little old lady left. When she got outside she fell. Yes the poor woman hit the pavement and injured herself. She was with her caregiver which may have been a daughter I assume. She called an ambulance. The old lady was crying with her hand over her face. I felt so horrible! I could do nothing to help and the caregiver called an ambulance. I left because I was parked right beside her and needed to make room for the ambulance that I could soon hear in the distance.

I have come to realize this is how my day tends to go. That bridge I showed pictures of with so much traffic a few months back had a fatal crash on it a few hours after I drove over it. I am glad that I avoided that situation. On my way to school today I saw in the middle of town chunks of a deer smeared for about 50 feet on the road. There was no way to avoid the chunks of deer and seriously no nicer way to put this. There was a leg sticking out of the remnants of a thigh but not much else and tons of blood. Ugh. It was a truly disgusting site and no way to avoid it. You had to drive through this disgusting bloody smear. Anyway that was my day. It's only 2:46.

How was your day?

Would you ever want one of these things? It's too creepy to me!

It's been a lazy weekend for me but I have a large paper to write tonight. The inlaws are here visiting so I haven't had a chance to work on it. Luckily I have a knack for pointlessly rambling for 3 to 4 pages while still sounding like I am somewhat intelligent. In other words, I'll do ok. haha