Tonight I am going out to celebrate New Years and throwing in an extra birthday celebration too. I am really really excited. I don't get to go that often doing what I plan on doing tonight. I may or may not hit a club. I actually kinda hate clubs. Elbow to elbow is NOT my cup of tea but I just want to have fun so I am going to actually go out to dinner with friends then afterwards the sky is the limit as they say. Trouble is I can't decide where to go. haha We'll figure it out.

So after the new year I need to get my drawing pencils out again and start working on this drawing I had put on the back burner. I procrastinate but one reason for it isn't pure laziness. It's fear. What you say? haha Well I don't want to mess it up! I want it to be just right. It has to be perfect. I won't settle for less so sometimes I just let it sit and I *think* about what I need to do to it for a long time.

I am doing my very first commemorative portrait of a little boy. He was hit by a car when he was 11 and I am good friends with his mom. I wanted to do this for her and I really know I can do it right. It's just....kind of a stressful thought. You can't mess something like this up you know? I've posted some drawings on my other blog but not too sure I have here. I'll have to sometime....if you are all interested. haha ;)

I took just a few pics of my birthday yesterday. I took a couple before I left the house and one when we went out. I had a really good birthday. I was good and spoiled. I ate at a Japanese Steakhouse. It was amazing! My hubby made me a birthday cake. It was so sweet. Enjoy the pics!

Yes, today is the day. It is my birthday. I am 33 years old today. The hubby and I are going out to a movie and dinner. On New Year's Eve we are going out with a huge group of friends for some food, drinks and partying. We'll probably get home the next day. I cannot wait!!! I am kinda eager to just let loose. I have endured a lot of stress lately and I really need a release. I'll make sure I post pics. I hope everyone else has a wonderful New Year as well. I got some great gifts for my birthday. I am about to download some stuff on iTunes with my gift card. I had never gotten a gift card like this before. I am really loving it!

I said when I made this blog I would talk about anything and everything. Sex is not something I feel grown women or men should be afraid to talk about. Especially if you are married but yet it is one of those subjects that causes so many to blush. I'll say this. I have been married for a long time. Sex is something you need to keep fresh and new. Those fluttery feelings can fade after a long time. Honestly I feel passionate love making is the best kind there is. I personally like make up sex so much I want to have a fight just so we can do it! OK. Maybe I don't pick fights but it makes it so much more romantic, passionate and full of love that it is just better. I think in a long term relationship you really need to do things to let your partner know they are still number one to you. Kisses when not asked and not just a peck either. I am talking come up to them and full on make out! I think the results can often be surprising. Hugs. Hugs are so important though you may not think so. I have learned a little butterfly pat on the back is not acceptable. A giant squeeze however is just right. I hate the bad rap women get after they are married. Maybe having kids and raising them lowers our libido. We are sorry about that but maybe if the men would come in and not just want *sex* but show TONS of love and passion then our libido would come running back. I can say from experience it does indeed come back. Just be patient!!! :)

My birthday is in 2 days. I am going out on New Year's Eve to celebrate my birthday that night along with New Years. Having your birthday between Christmas and New Years really kinda sucks. I hate to say it. It does. No one has money for the first thing. So you usually get no presents until well into January and February when it no longer even feels like your birthday. No one wants to go out and party on your birthday because New Year's Eve is just a couple of days away. No one wants to do a major celebration twice in a few days time. So my birthday is often kinda blah. The hubby has done a good job of helping me to have a good time in the past couple of years. Last year was nothing special. I was still sick, going through radiation (see my other blog if you want details) so I didn't go out or anything. This year though I am going out. I am going to have a great time celebrating this birthday. I really earned this one. I am so anxious!!!

You Were Meant For Me

For some reason I cannot embed myspace videos here. Hmmmm oh well. There is the link for whoever is curious.

Yes we got our ice storm last night. I posted pictures on my other blog. I have a beautiful dog named Sasha who enjoys this weather. I try to get her to come in but she wants to stay out and play in it. I don't know how. Her water dish freezes in literally an hour. I keep refilling it for her. I forced her to come in last night. It was horrible with the freezing rain and all. She is however a snow dog, or Siberian Husky so I guess she is made for this weather. I adopted her from PAWS a few years ago. She's made a great addition to our family.

Yes I tend to talk about shopping a lot but really this is only an update from a previous post. I promised pics of the purple and pink shirts I bought. Identical but I just LOVED them. So here they are.

I'm pretty anxious for Christmas. I still need to finish up the shopping. I think I'll finish up a few Christmas cards today too. (eep) Yes I haven't finished those either. I think I'm a tiny bit of a procrastinator. Oh alright I know I am! It's my worst problem. I need to join a rehab program for procrastinators.


*chuckle*

I went to the mall this past weekend. It was a nightmare. I try to be courteous to others. I stop at intersections (between clothes racks), I let people pass in front of me. I smile at crying babies, I try to be understanding. This is my personality. I have found many others do not do the same. Ok. You don't have to smile at a crying baby. Especially if you have none it's probably MORE annoying but once you are the one carrying that baby you get more sympathetic. Regardless, I went into Aeropostle because of a 70% off sale. Seriously. That's awesome so I wanted to check it out. It was a huge mistake. Apparently everyone in the next 5 counties also found it awesome because that store was packed. People walked into me, rushed in front of me, and otherwise made me feel like I was in a mosh pit. People, I am JUST shopping. I don't want to get knocked down. The line was at least 30 to 45 minutes long so I backtracked out of that store so fast you could barely see me. I won't be doing that again any time soon. Maybe at 1:00 during the middle of the week but NEVER again on the weekend. *Phew*

The past few weeks have been pretty much awful ones for me. Very few weeks, or days of my life really can compare in well, how much they stunk. I needed to get away. Sometimes I just think of those Calgon commercials and wish it could come true! It's a whole lot of things but basically everything just mounted up until my head was ready to explode. I'm an optimistic person. I really am. I try to always find the good in people and I try to hope for the best in all things. I am a cup half full type person. The last few weeks have tested that belief strongly but I'm hoping I am coming out of it still with my optimism in tact. I mean, even if I am wrong in hoping, living a life without hope is just a waste in my opinion. I'd rather hope in vain than to not hope at all. Well, I think so anyway.

I went and watched a few local bands this past weekend. My brother in law is in the band and I just love them. I had a good time. Still hubby and I cut out early and went to get something to eat. I had a Pecan Pie Cappuccino and let me tell you fellow sweet toothers, it was awesome!!! I finished it and before I even had my food I was feeling extremely stuffed. Then she put another one down in front of me! Free refills. I think I exploded at just the site. I ate maybe 3 or 5 bites of my sandwich, a few fries and was near bursting so I stopped. It was fun and nice to get away with the hubby though because we certainly do need it on occasion!

I did plenty today. I bought a cell phone for my daughter. It's pink and I am jealous. Did you guess that about me? I love pink. I know there are the women who are super anti-pink. I have reasons for being a fan. First of all, I am very girly. I can't help it. I love shopping, I love shoes, I love fake fingernails (though I don't have them now) and I love clothes, etc. I love getting my hair done. I love being pampered. And well, frankly pink looks best on my skin tone. haha Every time I wear it I feel as though my skin looks brighter, my face looks fresher, I look less aged. Now on the other hand if I wear Orange tones, not as good for me. I think because I am so pale. Regardless I bought a cell phone. It was a huge huge move for me. I know most kids do have cell phones these days and I thought it was time. She's got about 2 inches and 3 pounds to go before we are the same size...and she is 11. haha It's going to be odd looking up to her in a probably just a year's time!

Well, I love to shop. Let's put that out there right up front. I don't have as much money as I'd like to shop as much as I'd like so when I do it, I do it right. haha No I don't blow tons of money on myself. I search for sales. It's half the fun! I like to buy shoes. I like to buy clothes and coats, jackets even food! I love going out to eat probably more than just about anything. I may not look like it, but I love food. Yum!!! I got out the past two days and was finally able to enjoy a little bit of shopping. I stopped at a local mall and bought myself a fluffy white coat. I like watching movies with the soft fluffy white snow. This coat reminded me of that. I look like I'm just ready for winter. I saw these hot hot shoes that I'd desperately love to have. But I must save money for Christmas so that will be a luxury that has to wait. I want my kids to have the best Christmas ever so I really just bought necessary items, such as the coat and two long sleeve shirts that are gorgeous in my colors, purple and pink. :) I'll post a pic of me in those when I get one. For now here is the coat, what you can see of it...and I had to take a pic of me trying on the shoes!!

Do you ever feel like you are targeted? I have so been feeling that lately. I don't want to make this a therapy session and start going into all the things I have endured in a lifetime. Not all bad, but certainly not all good. It's just odd because it's like frequently strange things. I think maybe we all feel that way. Do you ever say "I should write a book!" haha I actually am. I need to get cracking though because I started it and haven't went further.

My point? Well, combined with the things you read on my other blog I have just had many things happen. I was kind of stressed out yesterday. I left my house to pick up my kids from school. Now, we live in a fairly small area. It's not really a high crime area. Kids are pretty good here. I like it. So, when I was pulling out of the gradeschool parking lot and saw two young boys around maybe 14 packing snowballs I didn't really think much of it until one of them stared at me coming. I just thought to myself...no way. Seriously....no way. It's already been a stressful day. So when I drove by and heard the deafening thud on the side of my car I knew he had indeed pelted me with a hard packed snowball. That kid picked on the wrong woman though because I immediately picked up my cell phone and called the police. He's lucky I didn't stop my car and go kick his little butt though.

Well I did that contest last Friday. Friday is here again so I went Random.org and put in all the links to those blogs who entered my contest. And the winner is:

When you are a stay at home mom you can sometimes lose track of the days. Or maybe we all do that I don't know. I really didn't want to be a stay at home mom anymore. I was done with it. I spent 2 years back at college. I am going to be an oncology nurse for those that are curious. I had to take a break due to unexpected pregnancy and cancer. A lot of my readers know this, because of my other blog. Anyway the baby is now one and it's so heavily on my mind that I want to get things done. I was honor roll in college and honestly it felt good. It's not like I coasted through with easy classes. I am talking Chemistry, Microbiology, Anatomy and Physiology. I took all those courses and loved them. Eeek. I never thought I could but I did and I do. I guess I had never had enough faith in myself that I could do it but I got there and it challenged me and I loved it. I really did. I miss it. I am so ready to go back that every bone in my body aches. I want to go back and be me again. I am so ready to just be Sandi again. I am a mom too and it's the most important job in the world to me. Still, I am anxious to get out and experience the world just a bit more. I got married at 19 and had my first baby by 21 years of age. It takes a toll on a person which is why I will always tell my daughters to wait on marriage and to get their college degrees first. I think it's important. I just say this from experience. You have to know you can be independent first. That's knowledge that really is just priceless.

I read my blog posts recently on here and the other and ugh. I can tell I've had a bad week. Hopefully things will look better from here on out. Really I am a very optimistic person despite trials I have had to endure throughout life. I swear I could write the most depressing country song EVER. I try not to dwell or it will eat me alive. I think it's the reason I like blogging so much. It's a great outlet. I am trying to get things done today. The snow has pretty much frozen to the ground. Well, it warms up during the day, melts a bit and at night turns into a regular ice skating rink. I am a little bit of a klutz so I have to be extra careful.

I finally bought myself a pair of shoes this week. I went to Burlington Coat Factory. They have great shoes. I seriously drool over the hot stilettos and boots. I love love love sexy boots. I love heels. I am a shorty so I love getting a little extra height. I needed something to wear for winter. I never really wear tennis shoes. I am much more of a sandal girl but the snow forced me to get something warmer. I got picked on a couple of times for wearing my pink Victoria's Secret flip flops when it was cold outside...but no snow of course. I looked at all the shoes in the adult section at Burlington but none I liked had my size so I ended up looking in the kids section. I can conveniently wear a size 4 in kids. So I bought a cute pair of Sketchers. Now I am officially styling. If the snow gets too deep I'll dig out my cute boots.

Who knew I could do a whole paragraph on shoes.

Honestly I have lost track of time. The kids have been on Thanksgiving vacation. It snowed so bad last night. It was the first real snow here. I went to get some groceries. I probably shouldn't have. On the way home I saw a terrible accident. It looked like it was a head on collision. I came up on it. There was debris all over the road. There was a car in the left lane facing the wrong way with no lights on of any kind. There was a badly mangled truck in the right hand ditch. On the left there was another car. In front of all that was a SUV that was also badly mangled. We pulled through because 911 was on it's way and we had to get out of the way. I saw a man in the white truck moving his arm. I pray he was ok.

Needless to say it's been a pretty interesting week. Snow days were called everywhere but here so we braved the weather. I wonder what tomorrow may bring.