Thursday I Think

When you are a stay at home mom you can sometimes lose track of the days. Or maybe we all do that I don't know. I really didn't want to be a stay at home mom anymore. I was done with it. I spent 2 years back at college. I am going to be an oncology nurse for those that are curious. I had to take a break due to unexpected pregnancy and cancer. A lot of my readers know this, because of my other blog. Anyway the baby is now one and it's so heavily on my mind that I want to get things done. I was honor roll in college and honestly it felt good. It's not like I coasted through with easy classes. I am talking Chemistry, Microbiology, Anatomy and Physiology. I took all those courses and loved them. Eeek. I never thought I could but I did and I do. I guess I had never had enough faith in myself that I could do it but I got there and it challenged me and I loved it. I really did. I miss it. I am so ready to go back that every bone in my body aches. I want to go back and be me again. I am so ready to just be Sandi again. I am a mom too and it's the most important job in the world to me. Still, I am anxious to get out and experience the world just a bit more. I got married at 19 and had my first baby by 21 years of age. It takes a toll on a person which is why I will always tell my daughters to wait on marriage and to get their college degrees first. I think it's important. I just say this from experience. You have to know you can be independent first. That's knowledge that really is just priceless.