My 14 year old and I collaborated and come up with this video. It's her hat and her cookie. lol We put it togther and here is the result. What do you think? haha

All my life I have been labeled as the nice girl...kinda quiet until you get to know me. I hate confrontation. I don't fight. I don't like to argue. I am pretty much a peaceful person. During my time on clinical I have been assigned a partner. We work together. As a nursing student we are taught to delegate jobs and to get our own tasks done. My partner had a medication to give the other day. She had to have an RN or our instructor watch her give the med. It was an IV push medication. So we looked for the RN assigned to us. She was nowhere in sight.GONE. So I told my partner that she needed to find our instructor or get another RN to watch. She insisted she was trying to avoid our instructor having to watch. (haha) So I said ask an RN.

She walked around with the medication for about 30 minutes and I started to insist that she ask someone at the desk to come watch her. It takes 5 measly minutes. Well she was just flat out too chicken to ask. So, not being able to take it anymore, I asked the nurse if someone could come watch. Our medications have a time frame to be given and if she didn't do it soon, it would be late. I told the desk nicely, we weren't sure where our RN went (as she did not tell us) and we needed to give the med. The RNs at the desk said "Oh she went down with a patient for a procedure." I stated "oh, well there ya go." This in turn prompted my partner to say "Oh that's why people think you are mean!" um...what? No one in all my life has said I was mean! I have been constantly told I let people walk all over me, that I'm too nice etc. I have been told this by professors. I need to be more pushy etc. However my "there ya go." Simply meant "oh so that's where she is. That explains why she isn't here." That's what I mean. I was upset with my partner for saying that out loud to the nurses, making them somehow think I am a mean person...which I am NOT. The irony here is she is known for being blunt and kinda mean. She prides herself on "saying what she thinks." She even stated to me that she is the only one who will tell me I am mean. I told my husband this and he was shocked. He laughed and thought it was funny. So I ask you. Do you think my comment "Oh there ya go" was mean? Cause if it is, I am just dumbfounded. lol Oh and I will say that I think it was SUPER irresponsible for our assigned RN to leave the floor for 2 hours without telling the student nurses assigned to her. HOWEVER I was not trying to be mean in my comment in anyway. In fact I really didn't even notice I said it until my partner pointed it out.

Thoughts?

My last post was on having difficulty sleeping. I hate to say it, but I just have a hard time sleeping without help. It is a medical condition and not one to be taken lightly. I am doing MUCH better since my last post however. Things are slowing down a tiny tiny bit for me. I will graduate in about 27 days. I have 3 tests left and a few message board postings. I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I am currently studying for a test with a boat load of information to absorb. Wish me luck, send prayers, whatever you do!!! I can use it.

I am a chronic insomniac. Until I was prescribed prednisone in 2004 I never had a single issue with insomnia. I fell asleep in the beginning credits trying to watch a movie. I started taking this for eczema that appeared on my eyelids. No I am not kidding. It was pretty horrible at the time. It would pop up out of nowhere. My eyes would swell. I had never had it anywhere before. The prednisone helped but while on it I had such insane energy. I couldn't sleep on it. It was great for that reason, however it was bad because after I stopped I still could not sleep. I called the doc and the nurse said it was impossible that it was still affecting me because it was out of my system by now. I worried it screwed with my internal clock or something. I would lie there in bed all night long. Not 2 hours or even 5 hours tossing and turning. I would close my eyes and reach a deep relaxation but never sleep. I also would itch a lot. My skin would drive me crazy. I had this fear built up inside of my stomach and it wouldn't go away. I think it became a cycle because still to this day I get that ball of fear when I think I might not sleep. If you get sleep and have no problems with it this would make no sense to you. Go several days being incapable of finding sleep and just laying there tortured, and you will understand.


I do wonder if the cancer played a part. It was the same time frame. I have tried hard to analyze how or why it happened. I only know the prednisone was the triggering factor. I tried Tylenol pm and eating foods that made me sleepy. I tried self hypnosis even. They sell CDs out there for it. I tried melatonin and everything under the sun. Nothing worked. I still laid there and honestly I started feeling like I was walking around in a dream. They say a lack of sleep is worse than smoking. I was at that point of desperation. I saw a sleep specialist and long story short I was put on Ambien. This saved my life. I do well with it, but if you are a sleep walker I definitely do NOT recommend it. I usually do not remember what I say or do when I take this. Luckily once I'm in bed I'm in bed. My husband will tell me things we talked about and I have no idea. However I sleep and I sleep well. It's amazing and has gotten me through these years. I have been able to occasionally fall asleep without it if I am not "trying" to fall asleep. My nerves definitely play a part. I know it. I got programmed to fear not sleeping. Anyway I need to see my doctor to get a refill. This is no problem except my only day with no class or clinical right now is Monday. They couldn't get me until December. That's fine. Usually they will refill my prescription for the time frame between the appointments. However when I went to pick it up (after a doctor call) it was not ready. I didn't sleep last night. I drove away thinking that the sleep specialist didn't even care nor think about the fact that I would be laying down to a sleepless night. My neck hurts, my back hurts and now I have called to see if the prescription is ready and it is not. I called the office and left a message. Still not ready. I am getting agitated and I wonder how a doctor who specializes in sleep can just allow a patient to suffer. If you know about sleeping pills you know they can cause rebound insomnia. They should be tapered off. Yet they showed no consideration for the fact that I had nothing. I went home empty handed. I'm beyond frustrated. I have homework to do. This is a very REAL problem for me. People think it's easy but when you feel you can no longer do something that should just happen naturally there is a problem.