First of all I know how to hover over a link to know it's not to the website you gave me. I am not retarded. Your spam is not fooling most people I am guessing but when you spell like this you'll get even fewer suckers. Not to mention you inserted a fancy little logo only to rush through the rest of your junk mail. Take a look:

You recived Hallmark E-Card .
	Click the link to see your E-Card.
	If there is someone who has speecial place in yor hart please folow links below:
		Visit Enter your e-mail address in the Original Recipient’s E-Mail Address box. Enter EG4258881155739 in the Confirmation Number box. Click Display Greeting.

I obviously removed the links because it's spam, and I don't want you to get spammed by clicking the junk links. Regardless this is what I find in my junk mail box. Hilarious.

I have a TON of homework to do. Over Thanksgiving and with dad getting more sick I have just put it to the side. At this very moment as I type this I am procrastinating. I don't feel like it but it has to be done. I tell myself I am near the end of this semester. I just need to keep my eye on the prize right? I am ready to start nursing school. I got the bill for that this past week. It's near $8000 per semester. That doesn't even include books, scrubs or the lab coats I need. Not to mention daycare will cost an arm and a leg.

So I got my loan award amount disclosed to me yesterday and it's a good $2000 short of what I need to just pay tuition. So hopefully we'll be able to figure something out. My stress level is through the roof lately.

Now, I guess I better start getting that home work done.

My dad has been taken back to the hospital. He hasn't been doing well and we knew it. His weight has been dropping rapidly. He's a shell of the man he used to be. We were hoping for answers. We still haven't gotten them. We keep being told they are almost sure it's pancreatic cancer. My issue with this is that if it WAS pancreatic cancer he could not possibly be so sick without them being able to see it. That type of cancer usually is not even noticed until it's later stages. The symptoms don't show up until it's fairly progressed. So, with how sick my dad has been, how could it be possible that they could not find it?

I have been working out the details to have a benefit for my dad to send him to Mayo. I have the place and date lined up finally but with the Holiday was going to wait until Monday to make copies of the flyers I made and then hopefully get some donation tubs etc. We are doing a spaghetti supper and were going to sell advance tickets and tickets at the door. We have ideas for a bake sale too. My sisters and I have worked nonstop racking our brains while also caring for our families. My sister is trying to work and balance all of this and her children. I am trying to balance it while caring for 4 children, my home and school work. My classes are really getting crazy now that it's only a few weeks from the end of this semester. I have tests and TONS of papers to write. My stress level is at the top right now.

Dad wanted us to all come to his house for Thanksgiving. He was as excited as I have seen him in a long time about it. We had planned what we were bringing and we were all so ready to go. Then this morning I got the call. Dad is confused again. It's like it was before. They think the blood infection could be back. Now I sit here, waiting for news from the E.R. I know my mom is there upset. The trouble being I am here with my four girls and my hubby is at work. My hubby can't just leave because HIS boss is out this week which leaves my hubby in charge of everything. So I wait. I can't really do anything at this point anyway. He isn't in a room yet and we aren't sure if he'll even be staying there. My sister has been feverishly working to get him transferred to a different hospital because frankly this one is not able to help him anymore. They can't give us the answers we need so it's time for something different. We have to also figure out where my mom will stay, how she will afford it, etc. She needs meals too. My dad is retired and they don't have a lot of money.

Then to top it all off the family is back at us again telling us we aren't doing enough. We should be there with mom. I love my family but I just don't think they understand what we are doing. They hear my mom crying and I get that. She is stressed. We are too. I want to just throw everything out the window and go be with my dad. But at the end of the day I still have to pass my classes and my kids still need their mommy here to care for them. I will go be with my dad every second I can, but at this very second I sit here agonizing over what is going on just like everyone else.

I wanted to be with my family this year. I knew it could be our last because who knows how healthy dad would even be next year? If it IS pancreatic cancer, or if it's not, we don't know how he'll be doing so this year meant everything and now it's gone. I have no food. We thought we were going to mom and dad's so I have bought no turkey or anything. I will have to try to see my dad, be with my mom tonight and somehow manage to whip up some sort of Thanksgiving dinner for my own family. I want my children to still enjoy their holiday.

Right now? I am just not feeling it.

I wouldn't call myself a great Christian. I grew up in the church yes. I had a Christian family and sure I believe in God. My faith though is personal and because I respect every single person's right to believe what they want I'm not going to sit here and preach one thing to you. Nor do I really think I need to. I have lived long enough that I realize people will pretty much believe what they want. I also realize we do tend to believe what we are taught. I am not arguing faith or Christianity or whatever your belief might be. However I am arguing that I have a right to say Merry Christmas to whomever I want.

As a child it was just Christmas. I never thought of it as having the word Christ in it. I loved the whole season and the joy it brought. It was about happiness and togetherness. I remember it. I can still smell it. I loved it. I still do.

I just read something that said Best Buy does not allow it's employees to wish people a Merry Christmas. They have to say Happy Holidays or something. This is wrong. Why? What happened to our freedom of religion? You can say whatever you want to me. I will respect your holiday and might even like to learn more about it. I am not Jewish but I am absolutely interested in those traditions and beliefs. I am not offended at Hanukkah songs, or ads. I am not offended by Kwanzaa or other beliefs. Why are people so offended when I say Merry Christmas? Why do they want to be rid of it? I am saddened. It's special to me and I feel like slowly the right to your religious beliefs are being stripped away. It's not even so much about the religion aspect to me. It's about tradition and what you just DO. Why should someone be able to say you can't do that? I wouldn't work somewhere that tried to do that to me and I don't believe constitutionally they have a leg to stand on but maybe I am wrong.

I have definitely had my ups and downs in the past few years faith wise. You have to understand I grew up in a very religious family that struck the fear of the pits of hell into you from day one. I know it forward and backward. However I am all grown up now and I deal with my faith privately and I don't take everything that is preached from the pulpit as law anymore. I find out for myself what I believe rather than what I am force fed. I do believe there are things that you just do not mess with and that is someones right to celebrate a religious holiday. This is for everyone! This is not just for Christians but for all faiths. We have a right to celebrate how we want. I truly believe this and I am so sick of everyone being offended at every single thing.

OK I have calculated the entries and used Random.org to figure out the winner randomly. Here we go. The winner is:
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Roxxymetal!!! Congrats to you Roxxy. I will be contacting you personally shortly! I may do another one of these soon. I had a great time. I wanted to give as many people a chance to enter as I could so I let it go a little longer. If you liked this giveaway be sure to watch for more. I don't get more than 30 or so entries so your odds of winning at some point are pretty good!!

She turned two today! Say Happy Birthday to my little girl :) Oh and I am sorry I haven't announced the giveaway winner yet. I have homework and tests like crazy but I am doing it! I will get it done I promise and have that thing shipping to my winner this week. Thank you all for your patience.

I've complained about them before and I'm doing it again. First let's talk about this plastic bag situation though. I remember reading a blog a few times all about a plastic bag. Yes it was called Windy or something. It featured random pictures of a plastic bag in various situations. No I am not kidding. I bet a lot of you have seen this blog. I wonder if it's still out there? I bet it is. I haven't seen it in awhile though. My point though is that I thought of that blog today on my way to school. I got to the big bridge I have to go over to get to school and saw a white plastic bag twirling through the air straight at me. I figured it would just fly past but hoped it wouldn't stick to the windshield or something horrible like that. It did neither. It caught hold of my side mirror and clung on for dear life. It was wrapped in such a way that I could never just pull it off, not too mention I wouldn't want to risk it sticking to the windshield of a car behind me so I listened to this thing flapping and it just annoyed the crap out of me for the next 2 or 3 miles to school.

So while I am irritated and distracted by the bag I suddenly notice a white car coming up behind me fast. I was driving a good 65 in a 55. I was keeping up with traffic and had no desire to go faster. This *expletive* of a woman literally was closer to my bumper than anyone ever in history has been to my bumper. I could see her hairdo and face clearly in my rear view mirror. I could NOT see the front of her car in my rear view mirror. She was THIS close. If I slowed down 1/10 of a mph she would have hit me. I had no idea for the life of me why she would follow so close. What would she accomplish by riding my ass like that? Well let me tell you. NOTHING. After a few moments I heard the high pitched whir of a crotch rocket coming up behind me. Next thing I knew there were two of these bikes passing me and the white car lady and dusting me at that. I am guessing they were going at least 90. It was a pretty crazy move considering wacky lady could have cut out to the right and hit them at any moment. She did get out after they passed me and she passed me on the right and disappeared into the horizon. Seriously.....what in the world? I was annoyed and the bag was still flapping annoyingly in the wind. I wanted that bag OFF my mirror!

I pulled up to school, got the bag off and walked into my class thinking of all the crazy lunatic drivers who try to make sure I don't get to class safely. That's my rant for the day. :)

I have been really busy with my homework lately. It's pretty insane actually. I just had a Meet and Greet at the College of Nursing I'll be attending in January. I have to finish all these prereqs though. I have to work my butt off to stay at the top. It's so not easy and honestly I am so tired of doing prereqs. I just want to get to the nursing stuff already.

Anyway I'd like to give you all ONE more chance to enter my giveaway for a Digital Photo Album. These things are great and make great gifts. Just leave a comment here:

http://nothingofflimitshere.blogspot.com/2009/10/time-for-giveaway-something-free.html

Tweet it, etc. Whatever. Read the post for options on additional entries. I'll be selecting a winner this week!

The Halloween pics! I love Halloween. I love posting pictures too. So it's a win win for me. I have been studying like mad. I am nearing the end of this semester and two of my classes are like double classes. Everything is done several chapters at once. There is triple the homework. Add this onto my daily life of caring for four (yes four) kids and a hubby, not to mention all my other classes and trying to get the planning and financial stuff done to start Nursing College in January I am slightly stressed. Halloween was a nice break. I met some nice new people. I had a great party and it was fun getting to know everyone I didn't know and visiting with good friends.

Do not forget to enter the giveaway for the digital photo album. The link is right there at the top of this page in the little box links at the top. See it? Enter my giveaway, right up there? Just leave me a comment to enter! It's so easy. Come on folks.


Here's a couple of extra pics for your enjoyment.