Graduation

One year from December 18th (or I think it's that date) I will graduate from the college of Nursing. It doesn't seem like it's been that long. I have had plenty of stress and doubts but I'm making it through this thing. I am so excited. I am in shock. I did this for myself. I finally did something for myself. I got married very young. I had all sorts of plans and dreams but you know how it goes. I made a choice. I got married at 19. We are still together. We have four children! Yeah that's right. Four. In this day and age that is a TON. For the record most people are surprised I have four. I am a small person so people just don't think it's possible but that's ok by me. It's true. My oldest daughter is taller than me. :) haha She is 13.

I went back to school in 2005. My youngest at the time was about 3 1/2. I was able to put her into preschool and then my journey began. I was a mother, a wife and now a student. My husband was traveling for work at the time. I was pretty much always alone. I hated it, for the record. It will never happen again. *mild tangent there* OK. Anyway, towards the end of 2006 we decided it was time he come home for good. It wasn't working. So he did. He got a site (same company) that kept him home. However, it meant we had to move. So I got myself signed up with a new college. We moved, hubby was home, all was grand. There was one minor detail. I wasn't feeling well. I felt really bad actually. I was having trouble breathing. I couldn't sleep lying flat. I was winded speaking two words. The phone was a nightmare. I felt like my neck was going to explode at any second. LITERALLY. I could go on, but the point is, I wasn't right. I then found out I was pregnant. I cried. I hadn't planned on more kids. Why had my life continued to go off in a direction that I didn't plan?? I was on BC. I missed a couple of weeks because I switched docs and therefore had to wait for the pills. I thought I was too sick to have a baby.

Fast forward two more weeks. I found out I had cancer. That's right. Pregnant. Three kids. Wife. Student. Cancer Patient. I managed to finish off that school year anyway. I got really really sick just before the final. Since I had A's anyway, they didn't make me take them. Nice. That was a good thing.

So in a nutshell? I had surgery, chemo, baby, radiation. In that order. I delivered a healthy baby. I am in remission now for almost 3 years. My baby? She just turned 3 November 17th. Me? I went back to college the summer of 2009. I finished my prerequisites. I started Nursing college January of 2010. I am now just about done with this semester. In January of 2011 I will be a senior. I will graduate in December of 2011. I think I deserve this. After all I have been through it's time I had something for ME. It is for my family too but my life, sometimes I feel has been way out of control. So much has happened and I have no power to stop it. This I have control of. I will work my butt off. I will get what I want. My eye is on the finish line.