Yes I have been pretty busy lately with school, but I refuse to make one of those posts about how I haven't had time to post lately because I have been so busy. I won't explain to you that I have had test after test and "proficiencies" to do (which is performing something I learned while a teacher watches and waits for me to screw up).

No I won't do that. I'll just tell you that I am doing well and almost DONE with my first semester of nursing school. I can't believe it at all by the way. I didn't have any summer classes so I am free! Yes I'll be back around here irritating you all as usual.

So, this weekend is my friend Christy's birthday. We are having a girl's night out. I think some pics could be in order. Maybe I'll manage to get some video too. We know how to have a good time and I can't wait. I really need a day to just relax and not worry about anything!

Thinking a lot about an online friend today. So sad. Read her story by clicking the picture above. This woman lost custody of her daughter due to vicious lies told by her ex. She was threatened through e-mail yesterday around 3:00 p.m. She posted a comment about how if "anything happened to her in the next few days" we would know what happened. She was afraid of her ex. The courts had given her daughter to this man. She had little visitation and became very depressed. She was fighting and raising money to go to court. Last night about 5 hours after the threatening e-mail Kodi passed away. It is believed she took her own life, however I find the circumstances VERY suspicious. Read her story and show her family some support during this unbelievably hard time.

Is it April already? Insanity. I am telling you this semester at school has been so hard and so busy that I barely realized I was half done. I will finish my first semester around the end of May. I am not sure of the exact date but I was thinking something like May 17 or so. I cannot believe how fast time has flown.

This past week I had my very first patient. Ironically it was a lymphoma patient. That's about all I can say, but that is the cancer I had. Mine was a different kind of lymphoma but boy can I relate to my patient you know? I was glad for the experience, learned from my inadequacies and complimented by the fact that the patient wished I was there all the time!!

Other than that I have been studying, writing papers, doing tests, etc. I do like to get out to relax on the weekends. It's hard to do with the amount of homework I have. But yes I am getting out tonight. I am going to see a band that my hubby's got a friend from work in. We'll see how good they are. I won't know anyone there which kind of dampens the excitement a bit for me. Nothing like going out with my girls. My friend is having a girl's night out birthday party this month. I want to go. Think I am too. We'll see. Last year's girls night out was a TON of fun!

Have a great Saturday everyone!

Well my spring break started off good by celebrating the hubbies birthday with some friends. We had a great time but now it's back to the grind.

School is boring though so how about that health care reform thing? Yes I said THING. What is your opinion on it? I myself am worried about it. I'll be the first to say I am the most unpolitical person you'll meet. I find it boring and full of big babies. Politicians are babies and of course my hatred for confrontation could have something to do with it. Regardless this is something that will affect us all.

OK. Here are going out pics. Enjoy!

I had a huge "test" that I had to pass yesterday. I put that in quotes because it is actually called a proficiency and it involves a series of hands on tasks. I had to learn how to do a focused cardiac, abdominal and respiratory exam. Then I had to learn a basic exam on top of this. Then when I went in I would choose between the three focused exams blindly, not knowing which I would get, then I would perform that exam on a fellow student with my teacher watching. If I failed I would have to do it again after two practices and have a teacher watching and possibly video taping it. Then the teachers would all confer together and decide if I should pass. If I didn't, I failed the class.
SO you can understand this was a stressful freaking week for me. My friends and I have been crazy this week. I have been giving exams to my pillows!!! I tell you, it's very difficult learning all of those from start to finish IN order. But I did. Yep. You heard me.

I PASSED!!!! I ended up drawing cardiac, the one I really wanted. I started practicing it first and it's the one I wanted. I have been so nervous because at the end of the actual exam you did the full basic exam too, then you have to the write up an entire report based on subjective material, the objective material including results of the exam. Like what heart sounds are heard where and where they are loudest, if you hear murmurs etc. But I did it. I passed and yeah I am freaking out.

Spring break this week and I am soooooo partying tonight!!!!

Literally they are flying by for me. I have so much to do. I am really busy with school these days. Sometimes I feel like I can NOT do this. I must be insane. Other days I am really excited and feel this is exactly what I want to do. Things get hard, but I guess that is life. I don't want everything handed to me. I want to prove myself not just to others but myself. I need to do this.

Today was busy and tomorrow isn't looking different. I have class then a Meds practice and then a Health Assessment practice. My dad will begin at 8 a.m. and end around 5:30 p.m. Well, the class part. Then I come home, study study study, homework, etc. I have to do so many things that I won't even bother trying to explain it.

Eventually this blog could turn into "Advice, From Nurse Sandi" Ha!

You know, even though I know it will irritate some people I am going to say it anyway. I am one of those people who is used to being "the nice girl". I hate confrontation, avoid it at all costs. I don't like to argue, disagree, fight, blah blah blah. I enjoy my blog as a forum to post my complaints but truly I rarely do it to someone's face because truly I loathe arguing. What's the point? You won't convince me. I won't convince you and most likely you're just pissing me off and then I am in a bad mood for the rest of the day.

I have to fight this type of behavior. I want to be liked. I like to make people smile. I like to make others happy. I want to make those in a bad mood smile. This doesn't always work out for me. Example one: I recently saw a Twitter post in which someone said they were going to kill themselves. Regardless of my thought that it was a ploy for attention and also wondering why I was following a person who described themselves as emo, that good side of me had to say something. I simply said I hoped they were kidding. I figured if they needed someone to vent to, I would try and help. They replied they weren't kidding and blocked me. Nice. So much for trying to help them out.

Today I saw someone cussing up a storm on Twitter about something. I figured 40 f words in a row was humorous, regardless of how angry you are. If you type that out, you are hoping for a response am I right? You want people to say something. You are trying to get attention. So, I just replied with an LOL what's wrong? I got a reply along the lines of "Glad I could fucking amuse you." Or something like that. I have zero clue how to respond to messages like that. Are you on twitter to fight with strangers? Do you think everyone who replies is trying to start a fight with you? Before you jump to conclusions you might want to realize that perhaps it is just breaking the ice for you to vent. I am a good listener. It's what I do. Vent away and I'll offer helpful advice. Attack me and I guarantee the last thing you'll see is my ass as I turn away.

I don't fight. I don't argue. I dwell on it and it's no good for me so I just leave the situation. It's easiest for me. However when someone truly doesn't like me I guess it's confusing. I'm agreeable....friendly....maybe that's what it is. Maybe I piss the mad people off. Which of course, is incredibly funny to me!!! It reminds me of an episode of The Golden Girls. Yes I like that show. And no I won't argue with you about it! On this particular episode a man who works with Rose just does not like her. She's too happy and bouncy for him. She just does NOT get it and wants to do anything to make him like her. The rest of the episode is about that. She is trying to get him to like her, which only further ticks him off. Funny stuff. I don't want to be that girl so I just learn to leave the angry people alone. If you don't like me, your loss.

Now, back to the books!!