Literally they are flying by for me. I have so much to do. I am really busy with school these days. Sometimes I feel like I can NOT do this. I must be insane. Other days I am really excited and feel this is exactly what I want to do. Things get hard, but I guess that is life. I don't want everything handed to me. I want to prove myself not just to others but myself. I need to do this.

Today was busy and tomorrow isn't looking different. I have class then a Meds practice and then a Health Assessment practice. My dad will begin at 8 a.m. and end around 5:30 p.m. Well, the class part. Then I come home, study study study, homework, etc. I have to do so many things that I won't even bother trying to explain it.

Eventually this blog could turn into "Advice, From Nurse Sandi" Ha!

You know, even though I know it will irritate some people I am going to say it anyway. I am one of those people who is used to being "the nice girl". I hate confrontation, avoid it at all costs. I don't like to argue, disagree, fight, blah blah blah. I enjoy my blog as a forum to post my complaints but truly I rarely do it to someone's face because truly I loathe arguing. What's the point? You won't convince me. I won't convince you and most likely you're just pissing me off and then I am in a bad mood for the rest of the day.

I have to fight this type of behavior. I want to be liked. I like to make people smile. I like to make others happy. I want to make those in a bad mood smile. This doesn't always work out for me. Example one: I recently saw a Twitter post in which someone said they were going to kill themselves. Regardless of my thought that it was a ploy for attention and also wondering why I was following a person who described themselves as emo, that good side of me had to say something. I simply said I hoped they were kidding. I figured if they needed someone to vent to, I would try and help. They replied they weren't kidding and blocked me. Nice. So much for trying to help them out.

Today I saw someone cussing up a storm on Twitter about something. I figured 40 f words in a row was humorous, regardless of how angry you are. If you type that out, you are hoping for a response am I right? You want people to say something. You are trying to get attention. So, I just replied with an LOL what's wrong? I got a reply along the lines of "Glad I could fucking amuse you." Or something like that. I have zero clue how to respond to messages like that. Are you on twitter to fight with strangers? Do you think everyone who replies is trying to start a fight with you? Before you jump to conclusions you might want to realize that perhaps it is just breaking the ice for you to vent. I am a good listener. It's what I do. Vent away and I'll offer helpful advice. Attack me and I guarantee the last thing you'll see is my ass as I turn away.

I don't fight. I don't argue. I dwell on it and it's no good for me so I just leave the situation. It's easiest for me. However when someone truly doesn't like me I guess it's confusing. I'm agreeable....friendly....maybe that's what it is. Maybe I piss the mad people off. Which of course, is incredibly funny to me!!! It reminds me of an episode of The Golden Girls. Yes I like that show. And no I won't argue with you about it! On this particular episode a man who works with Rose just does not like her. She's too happy and bouncy for him. She just does NOT get it and wants to do anything to make him like her. The rest of the episode is about that. She is trying to get him to like her, which only further ticks him off. Funny stuff. I don't want to be that girl so I just learn to leave the angry people alone. If you don't like me, your loss.

Now, back to the books!!

I am watching the news right now, wondering if Hawaii is going to get hit like they predicted. It's not looking like it. That's a relief. Hope it stays that way.

It's crazy that there was an 8.8 magnitude earthquake in Chile not long after the one that hit Haiti. It's crazy out there lately. There was actually a minor one right here in Illinois in the past two weeks. I did not feel it however one friend said she did in the middle of the night. I have felt it before. There was one in 2004 or 2005. I forget now but it was a few years ago. You do NOT expect that sort of thing around here. I was just starting to fall asleep and felt some vibrations. I woke up and noticed all the windows were rattling....everything was. I thought a big truck was going by and then thought it was lasting too long for a truck for one, and two, a truck wouldn't cause all the windows to shake. I walked from room to room and noticed all the rattling, confused still sleepy then it stopped. I went back to bed. The next day they said it was an earthquake.

It's creepy to think there could be an earthquake in Illinois. You do not growing up fearing those here. Tornadoes yes. We are ready for those but not an earthquake.

Well, back to the news!

Too much school. Too many classes. Too much homework. Too much reading. Too much studying. TOO MUCH! I am a little studied out do you think? I have learned a lot though. I love learning. I love hands on stuff but I hate that it takes away from my personal time.

So my sister called and asked me to have a party tomorrow. So you know what? I am! Food, drinks, friends and fun tomorrow night. I can't wait. I will be singing a little karaoke. I'll put up some pics.

Until then, check out the new do! I got my hair done.

Ok well technically I had one yesterday with my lunch but I could go for 2 or 3 in one sitting. I need to relax. As I say that, I know I have a ton of work to do today. I have so much homework it's seeping out my ears. (ew) That's ok though. I don't mind so much. I have to figure out how to do some research and write some papers that are due within the month of February but I'll do it. No problem. I just have a multitude of things to finish. December of 2011 cannot possibly come fast enough.

I am ready for a night out with my girls. I have a feeling they are ready too. It's been a rough year. We need some relaxation. This involves a margarita in one hand and some booty shaking on the side!!!

Ahhh yes. Homework. I have plenty to do. There is no more procrastinating or skimming. The stuff I read now is life or death. If I am to be a good nurse I will dedicate time and will read thoroughly. So wish me luck. I have several online assignments to do before BEFORE 11 p.m.

It's been icy and foggy around here lately. I have commented several times on how it feels like we live in Silent Hill now. If you have seen the movie you'll get it. Or if you've played the video game I suppose. It's warmed up a bit the past couple of days so the ice is melting. The danger has been falling ice. You never really think of that but the sharp icicles that form do have to come down eventually.

I am ready for summer.

Now I liked her Tick Tock or however she spells it. I felt even in that song they did too much computerized stuff with her voice. It's like I can't really decide if she's good or not. If they do THIS much stuff to her voice, then maybe she's got something to hide? Why so much? You could never hope to do it karaoke style haha and how would she ever do this live without lip syncing? It's good club music. That's about it.

I have issues with the way they take people's voices and change them. I am getting to where I want to hear music without all that. I want to hear TRUE talent. Live stuff. Good stuff. Stuff that is NOT messed with. Know what I mean?